good friends, a cowboy and a whole lotta love

One of my best friends brought me to her house to night for dinner,spend the night and just to get out. I was so scared to come since my last overnight trip here has been with him in my other life. But I'm so glad I did. I enjoyed a glass of wine and a little real food... chicken, pork, broccoli, and rice. I haven't shed a tear since before 6pm. I might have a good cry before I go to bed. Being in the room where I once stayed with him might bring back a few memories. But I am turning a corner and shutting the memories out. I need to move forward and I need to say goodbye. I am pretty sure it's going to be a long goodbye. But that's OK. It's a process and I am on the road to recovery. I may hit a few speed bumps and pot holes along the way but I'm on the road and I am going the distance. One of my friends sent me some great words of wisdom today. He made me want to kick my own butt spending so much time being down. Onward and Upward. Ironically I have spent the evening with my friend in bed once again. We laughed and said we didn't want to shock my system too much in the beginning. SO I traded a bed in one room for a bed in another. But this one came with the love of a friend, her hubby and her precious son, my groundpiggy and my cowboy. And when he came to crawl in bed with both of us he said I love both of y'all, and kissed us both good night. Might only be 4 but that is what I needed. In the eyes of my little cowboy I am still a really cool friend to have and he wants to show me all of his toys, video games, and wii action. That makes a girl feel special. This is just what I needed. I miss my sweet kitty who has been at my vigil beside me. But I was reminded tonight that life will go on. That boys come and go but some friends are really forever. That God really does consider me a pearl and that the best is yet to come. I love all of my amazing friends for reaching out with comforting words and just love love love, BIG LOVE, The only kind there is. I know I might still have some setbacks, a few tears along the way. But I am gonna make it through this. "The best way out is always through" Robert Frost. Yes Indeed. My mother said to me this afternoon " You are so loved by so many people, you have an amazing support system. And that is a testament to you. You are lucky and blessed, not many people have that." Mother always know best. I am so blessed. Keep that love and prayer coming through. I am ready to tackle this heartbreak and kick it's booty! I need to feel that sunshine again, and I will one ray at a time. Every ounce of love I have to give, from the bottom of my heart, is for all of my friends and family. I am so grateful that you love me. In the end to be loved by so many is really all that matters. I know there are already quite a few Band-Aids on my heart right now helping to put it back together.