Just a spoonful of sugar to help the medicine go down

So despite how much I love my very good friend who told me to get the Liquid Alive and how much better it would make me, that stuff is awful. But seeing as how I am going on one Diet Dr Pepper, 1/2 of a G2 and half of a Rafferty's cheese soup I can't really complain about the nutrients that are keeping me healthy and alive. I would swallow the nastiest thing in the world if it could just make me feel better. Of course I would settle for a magic wand to take all the pain away and maybe a time machine to take me back to when he used to love me. I am feeling the continued love from so many friends and family. I just know that is helping me so much to stand strong. I was thinking about love, that unconditional love, the choice of meeting another persons every need. I know that we had that. I struggle with how we lost it. Or how he lost it. Where did we go wrong? Did my poor choices play into the burden? He helped me find my Happy, and I was loved and I was gushing and I was the happiest I have ever been in my life. He allowed me to be myself and loved me even more for all the dorky and quirky things about me. I just want that back again. I know it's not going to happen. He made his choice and I had little say in the matter. I couldn't convince him to stay. To fight for us. I don't know how you fight for someone that doesn't want you anymore. I know the healthy thing is to close the door and accept that his mind was made up to move on. I know that he isn't coming back. And that just might be a more bitter pill to swallow then the nasty Liquid Alive.