Success is small but it's sweet

The prayers are working. I have the most peroids of non crying this afternoon. I actually even ate half the potato soup my mom brought me from Raffertys. I am going to run to whole foods and get some liquid vitamin B that my friend suggested would make me feel better. I will do anything to feel better. I am still really sad and I still really miss him. But at the end of the day I love him. Love him more then the sun and the moon and the stars. I would be devastated if he has really met someone else. But in loving someone you have to let them go and even though it would hurt like hell I would want him to be happy. All I ever wanted was the best for him. I think these are all good signs. Maybe my self preservation is kicking in and saying get your behind out of bed and brush those teeth! But I will take every step forward as a sign of healthy recovey. I also read an article that said all this crying is very healthy. Yeah me!